Far From Family

Far From Family

Far from family. ⁣ ⁣ I’m feeling that distance today in ⁣ my heart. ⁣ ⁣ I was feeling it before the photos⁣ came ringing in on my phone. ⁣ ⁣ Feeling it before seeing the ⁣ youngest in our family ⁣ being held in the arms⁣ of our matriarch,⁣ my grandmother,⁣ Nani. ⁣ ⁣ See, there’s a family reunion ⁣ next door to me. ⁣ Parents with their grown daughter,⁣ grown daughter with a family⁣ of her own. ⁣ Parents turned grandparents⁣ playing with their⁣ grandchildren. ⁣ ⁣ It all looks so lovely⁣ so loving⁣ so familiar and yet distant. ⁣ ⁣ I’m missing my family⁣ today. ⁣ ⁣ Missing my husband too⁣ and...⁣ ⁣ (this is hard to write)⁣ ⁣ wondering if my body will ever⁣ heal enough to⁣ let us begin a family⁣ of our own.