Feeling Rushed

Feeling Rushed

Like a fish on a hook⁣ Being reeled in⁣ Being pulled forward at lightening speed⁣ This is how I feel⁣ Especially when people are around me⁣ And my nervous system is on⁣ Overdrive ⁣ I can't find the words⁣ I can't slow down enough to think⁣ I just constantly feel like⁣ I'm being pulled forward by an⁣ Invisible force⁣ Rushing me along ⁣ Time is racing ⁣ I want to slow down ⁣ This death anniversary too⁣ It is heavy on my mind ⁣ It's approaching all too quickly ⁣ I need the quiet ⁣ I need the peace⁣ I need to be able to sit ⁣ And think ⁣ So that I can write ⁣ And let flow out of me the⁣ Surge of potent emotion ⁣ That has been pent up⁣ And suppressed for an entire year⁣ But I also want to be with him⁣ To test those waters ⁣ Because our time together ⁣ In the same physical space⁣ Is so few and far between ⁣ What to do?⁣ But let go